At some point in your journey, you have sought solace from the pain or the burdens of your symptoms. You have longed for something to change, for a shift in the repetitive experience that has been your life for so long. The drudgery of trying, the incapacitative feeling of cycles, of repetition… of nothing changing. You have longed for a shift, a way out and a different way.
It is at this point that you are likely to dive into the internet, seeking and searching for answers. Maybe there is a new supplement that you could try? Perhaps there is some new treatment that you haven’t explored yet? Perhaps there is some way of easing what you are experiencing? Something to make it all shift, to make it all go away? Some way of finally living a different life.
Inevitably, you land up buying something or joining a program or jumping into something as your hope is that it will shift things. You took action and you did something and that in itself felt good. You feel some form of relief and some form of control over the situation.
However, there is an interesting and scary veil that has been covering you for so long that you have failed to see it. It is a dark cloth that sits over you. It is like a dark scarf of silk that lies just on the surface but it inflicts on how you see the world and how you see your journey. It is not about a need for a new diet or a new supplement or a new strategy. Those things are always available. They are never-ending and their suggestions provide some form of control and even relief but that is not ultimately what truly needs to shift.
What truly needs to shift is your unveiling. Your release of that dark cloud that hangs over you. That perpetual belief that there is more that needs to be done, that you need to push, to do more. To just keep trying, to keep doing. It is made of force, of high energy and strong resistance. That resistance is the resistance of letting go. Of acceptance but also of allowing yourself to breathe. To breathe the true depth of what you need to look at. Yourself? Your pain? Your physical burdens? Your emotional sludge?
Unveiling into yourself and finding acceptance is a scary place but we can find it within ourselves and our view of the world and ourselves. It is about coming to a calm space within ourselves. To feel at ease, grounded and content within ourselves. No more pushing, just being. No more fighting, just accepting and giving. No rush, no pressure. Just being. Just letting go and trusting.
It is about moving away from the “perfect” anything. Perfect diet, perfect self, perfect life. It is about accepting that we are worthy, loveable and okay just as we are. That sitting still and not doing anything is okay. That just letting ourselves be, letting time flow and to know that our worthiness is not dependent on doing anything or being anything. We are as we are and we are alive and breathing, just as we are. We are not more loveable or less loveable based on what we do or give to another. More worthy or less worthy based on what we achieve or how well we do something. We simply are and we can see and experience the world, simply as this. Taking in, breathing in. Being.
Sitting still in a park and watching the world as it rushes past us. Just being. No need to do anything. Reflecting. Experiencing. Breathing. We are here and the world around us is here for us to experience.
Unveil that perpetual need to do more. To have more. To have some unobtainable thing that you believe lies in pushing more. In being more of something to someone or to yourself. Let it go. You are. Your being is here. Take it in. Sip it in. Slow it down. There is no perfect. There is just now and this moment.