The best quote I can think of, which defines Insanity: “Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results”. Albert Einstein. Many of us have done this or are still doing this. We go on a particular treatment because our Gyni or our doctor suggested it. We believe them and follow what they say religiously. This could be the contraceptive pill, Lupron, Depo Provera or simply living on pain-killers until the next operation.
We feel absolutely lousy ….. Terrible. In pain and struggling and wishing for it all to somehow get better. Hoping that this treatment we are on will somehow make a sudden turn and suddenly work. Each day is a mystery as to what level of pain we are going to experience today. Life becomes a series of “better than yesterday with Endo”. You live on painkillers and you can’t remember the last time you were able to just laugh and enjoy the simple things of life, without Endometriosis somehow destroying it! Life becomes all about Endometriosis and you start to feel such a deep sense of anger and bitterness for your body, this horrible condition and that somehow you were cursed to get it! You even resent women who don’t have Endometriosis pain as much as you and just start to believe that you are stuck. Stuck with this debilitating disease that will never leave you. A life of endless suffering……
The reason I can write this, is simply because I have been in that headspace. I have been so low with Endometriosis and honestly thought my only option was to get a hysterectomy (actually believing this would work!). It started to affect my work and my career options and my whole life was suddenly all about Endometriosis. Eventually…… I gave up. I really did. I stopped trying. I stopped taking everything the doctors had given me, not because I didn’t believe they had their place but simply because none of it seemed to do anything to make me feel better. I got into a terrible mindset where I believed that, if I can’t do this 100%, then I don’t want to do anything at all. Never mind that I had completely run out of any funding for my “medical condition”. My health insurance wouldn’t cover another operation and all those hormonal treatments were just too expensive to pay for on a basic salary, this is one of the main reason why I always tell women in my situation that. So, there I sat, a month after going off all the treatments the Gyni had suggested, wallowing in my own self-pity. I was after all allowed to be miserable. No one could possibly understand what I was going through and this was just hell. I sat in that space for at least a month. Completely exhausted, defeated and just helpless.
Thing is, no matter what happens we somehow we have to move forward. We do. It is hard but we do.
So, I went to the library. I remember it like it was yesterday. It was slightly chilly, late autumn and I had chosen the most dark and hidden clothing I could find. I wanted to escape and somehow be invisible. I went into the health section and looked for a book on Endometriosis. I found one. It didn’t tell me the usual things about it though and in that moment…. I realised the massive potential of healing that is all within our reach. It was not mainstream. It was not common knowledge BUT it was right here in a public library! It is natural, holistic healing.
Something changed in me that day. Something MASSIVE. It was hope. I finally had hope that there was more than one way to deal with Endometriosis.
I write this article to give you hope and that it opens you up to healing Endometriosis naturally. There are other options out there, other than Lupron, Depo Provera and drugs and operations. You can feel better with Endometriosis without those!
I have discovered so much about the body and how to feel better. I have learned the connection between our Endometriosis and our pain, our irregular hormones and all the associated symptoms we have.
Please never give up searching and trying new things – even if they are not mainstream! Don’t dismiss anything and try anything – no matter what others might say!
For me, the best thing that ever happened was that exact thing – giving up or rather…. giving in to it all. I got so low, that the only way was forward and for me, that was natural healing.
I have not had another operation since then, which was over 7 years ago. I have very minimal pain from my Endometriosis and it is getting better everyday.
You too can have this. I promise 🙂 Just start by making a change. A positive change. Start with the first step – find HOPE 🙂